This has been the most insane, unpredictable year of my life. While I didn’t anticipate any of it, I appreciate it all the same. I feel like I’ve finally evolved into the person I was meant to be but repressed for so long due to conditioning, insecurity, what have you. Despite all the pitfalls, I have to say that I’ve had a lot of fun and I’m really grateful to be alive and blogging with all of you and a few others in my life, especially with the throwing of guidance at me and maybe even vice versa that helped pave the path I’m currently on.
Anyway! Normally my New Years goals revolved around working on myself and my sociability (or then-lack thereof), but as I think about things that I feel I’ve been deficient in socially.. nothing is really coming up. That’s a super empowering feeling. If anything, I want to make it a point to take these gifts I’ve come across in the past year to just call out people when they’re out of line, and stop tolerating children under the guise of being adults. Weeding out the final scope of toxic people in my life, no longer humoring anyone that engages in vague/passive aggressive behavior. I feel like I have a strong, zero tolerance policy for that built into myself lately and I’m going to utilize it when the time comes for it.
I also want to work on my amibition. While I love my job, at the end of the day, it is retail and not something I want to be doing longer then another two years max. I want to go back to school, I want to collaborate in artistic pursuits with good friends that I’ve trust and really set those things into motion. I just want to be more driven and keep that momentum going. I’m really, really stoked for the new year.
I can’t tell any of you guys enough how much I revere, adore, and appreciate all of you. Whether we’ve ever had a ~*~*~public disagreement*~*~ or whatever, we’re still friends for a reason, and that’s some deep shit. I owe a lot to Tumblr, as much shit and bad vibes I send towards David Karp on a daily basis, this website and you guys mean a lot to me. Thanks for sticking around, dudes.
“…I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you’ll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.”—Neil Gaiman (via pileofpeonies)
“I love Los Angeles. I know a lot of people go there and they see just a huge sprawl of sameness. But when you’re there for a while, you realize that each section has its own mood. The golden age of cinema is still alive there, in the smell of jasmine at night and the beautiful weather. And the light is inspiring and energizing. Even with smog, there’s something about that light that’s not harsh, but bright and smooth. It fills me with the feeling that all possibilities are available. I don’t know why. It’s different from the light in other places. The light in Philadelphia, even in the summer, is not nearly as bright. It was the light that brought everybody to L.A. to make films in the early days. It’s still a beautiful place.”—David Lynch, Catching The Big Fish (via bbook)
“We need a renaissance of wonder. We need to renew, in our hearts and in our souls, the deathless dream, the eternal poetry, the perennial sense that life is miracle and magic.”—E. Merrill Root (via elige)