I understand how people become negative. You grow up in life thinking you can be anything you want to be, your dreams are limitless in this ~great 1st world nation of ours~, and by the time that magical number of 18 rolls around and you’re thrown out of your nest (whether literally or just taking on an unexpected financial burden), that’s when you shake hands with a handsome Devil whose name is Capitalism who, unbeknownst to you, will be ramming you through various orifices for the rest of your life. You work these shitty little jobs while you’re in school in customer service, dealing with absolute “assholes”, with every day of unnecessary fuckheadedness beginning to get to you. You think about all the times you’ve been slighted in your life because you were “too nice”. You wonder what the fuck is wrong about being “too nice” to begin with. Then the greatest adult lesson of them all finally hits you across the face when you least expect it: every day in Capitalism is another day in high school. There are social politics to be played, these particular grades are rarely ever fair, hard work often means nothing, and fickle snakes are amongst you to ruin you in public opinion so that person can ascend in your place. After a couple of years of this, YOU start to become the person with unwarranted verbal aggression at supermarkets, the person that sighs loudly with exasperation at someone that’s taking too long in line, you feign outrage when something of yours is out of stock even though you can totally live without it. Haha life is so fucked kids!!!!
God I really need a new outlet going on for myself. I would like to preserve the better angels of my personality for as long as possible but to use a phrase completely detached from Lily fuckin’ Allen, it’s hard out here for a bitch